Saturday, February 28, 2009

So Very Fuckable

Goddamnit, I am tired.

Every single day I am besieged by assaults on my perceived gender while my personal concepts of gender dissolve into a sea. I feel at this moment, a forceful urge to vocally fight back on behalf of those perceived as less than by a large portion of our global population.

Today after class I had a male former classmate tell me that he had dropped out of our class because of one particular female perceived student who "looked like she had hit every branch while falling out of the ugly tree." The presence of said student was enough for him to not only leave the class, but to casually mention it to me as if I would agree, or at the very least not complain.

At my protestation he responded, "Well, don't worry, Kate, you're quite an attractive lady yourself."

I told him to go fuck himself.

Looks like a lady, is a lady? As long as she feels attractive, she'll allow me to say whatever I want.

This fight is so repetitive and tedious. Honestly, though, the more I fight it, the more energy I seem to have to continue. Here is a vessel in which to pour that energy.